I'm blessed.

I can't believe how lucky I am.
I watch so many other girls going thru what I am going thru
and I realize how good Shawn treats me.
Even though he is miles away for so long, he hasn't changed a bit.
He is still the most amazing man in the world, who treats me like a princess.
He always tells me how much he loves me and how important I am to him.
I haven't gotten one letter that didnt tell me how much he loves me.
I am truly blessed.
I wait 3-4 weeks for a letter and with every letter I get,
I fall more in love with him. He always knows what to say to give me a boost.
I know I can do this.
I'm also really blessed to hear from him once a week.
So many girls dont get that opportunity and I am humble enough to say
I am very blessed to get to do that with him.
He is so special to me.
Even though he is so far, I really do feel so close to him.
And I dont say that in a cheesy way,
I really mean it. I really do feel like he is here.
And its nice to read his letters and emails and see how much he has grown
spiritually and in a mature way as well.
I'm a complete supporter of missions.
They are the best thing for these boys,
and its making him grow up into the man I wanna spend eternity with.

So here I am, rambling on about how blessed I am,
cuz lets face it,
I'm a pretty freakin lucky girl.

Did I mention I am really blessed?

Thank you for everything Shawn.
For being you.
For staying the same, but changing for the better.
I love you with all my heart.

498 :)

499

Say 'so long' to 500's
and say hello to
400's.

499 Days until my best friend
and the love of my life
comes home.

It feels good. :)

I love you so much Shawny!!

Best 2 years.

January 24, 2010

The most amazing man in the world

became such a huge part of my life.

Yes, thats right,

Today is our 2 year Anniversary!

Its hard not having him here.

I've thought about him all day

and just kept wishing to myself

"I wish I could kiss him, I wish I could hug him

I wish I could just tell him Happy Anniversary"

Especially on this day,

I want everyone to know how blessed I am

to have him in my life.

These were the most

amazing 2 years

and defnitely the best 2 years of

my entire life.

I grew so much knowing him.

He changed my life in so many ways.

We had our ups and downs

but thru it all, it made our love stronger.

-I learned more about the gospel

-He strengthened my testimony

-He opened my eyes to my true friends

-He picked me up on my feet and showed me

the importance in life

-He made me closer with my family

-He made me HAPPY

-He showed me how it feels to be loved

and in love.

-He showed me what I'm worth

-He made me grow up

-He helped show me the 'bigger picture'

and that I want him apart of this 'big picture'

You may be thinking

"Well gosh, thats just the most perfect couple in the world"

Yes, we are something really special and have something

very unique, but it wasn't all easy for us.

We had to work at it everyday.

We would fight (rarely) and become stronger thru it

we would push each other off the edge

we would drive each other crazy

but relationships aren't easy.

they aren't perfect.

but everyday you can WORK

for them to be perfect

and that will make your love stronger.

And thats what we did.

Thats what we do everyday.

He gave me the best 2 years

that any girl could ever ask for.

Sometimes I ask myself..

Is he real?

Do I really have a man like him?

Do I deserve him?

Is this too good to be true?

Why is he so amazing?

And all those point to the answer:

Emily, you are very blessed. Hold onto him

DO NOT let him go.

So I wont!

I never will.

I'm looking forward to the anniversaries to come!

Happy Anniversary babe.

I love you sooooooo much!!

If coming home wasn't hard enough.

If coming home wasn't hard enough,

the Lord is really giving Shawn a trial.

He comes home for a month;

has a 4 hour delay in LA;

misses his flight in Santiago

therefor he has to figure out new flight plans

IN SPANISH

for six hours;

gets on a plane and arrives in Concepcion

and his bags are stolen.

Paragraph from email:

No the duffle bag that i took down to chile i didnt loose, right when
i got of the plane and then met up with the senior missionaries here
they told my that last night the stupid office elders took my
suitcases to take to my house the night before i got here, and they
went and parked on a bad part of town in concepcion to do contacting
and someone broke out the window and took all my stuff. Everything, i
mean everything, pictures of you, christmas packages, the 7
months worth of letters, all my coats, suits, shoes, books, etc. Its
been hard week. I have had to go shop to replace things, all my
clothes, shaving razor, my paresnts are sending me suit case down the
end of this week with another supply of contacts and rain gear and
coats and stuff. LIke my life has sucked. I dont even know how I've
functioned honestly, i was so pissed holy crap, still am. 

Everything is gone.

7 months worth of everything.

And it bothers me so much to know

some heartless Chilean has MY letters,

MY pictures,

the CHRISTMAS package I sent him,

just everything.

I'm furious.

I can't believe Shawn has to go thru all this.

But I sent him super positive emails.

Shawn is amazing

and he is capable of anything.

He can conquer the impossible

and I'll be by his side thru it all.

I'm sending him a package full of things to replace.

Everything I've gotten him while on his mission

I am re-buying and sending it to him.

I know how much it means to him

and I will do everything I can to make him happy.

His happiness means the world to me.

and he needs a boost to get out there and serve.

Its hard.

What he is going thru is very hard

and no missionary should have to deal with this much

but the Lord knows what he is doing.

Maybe he is putting him thru these trials

so later down the road when he is going thru HARDER things

he will look back on this and know that he can

overcome anything.

I'm so proud of him.

I'm proud of his decision to stick it out and serve.

He's amazing.

I've got myself a GREAT guy

and I'm not letting go of him.

He's mine forever!

I love him so much.

And even though he can't read this right now...

I love you Shawn

and I'm so extremely proud of you.

I know what you are going thru is so hard,

but I'll be by yourside thru it all

and help you with everything you need.

You've got so many people praying for you.

I believe in miracles and I know something

special is coming your way.

Smile, because I love your smile.

and I know that you will get thru this

with a smile on your face.

Its hard to be positive about this situation he is in.

But I'll be positive because he needs me.

I love you Shawn, sooooo much!!! 

Never too early

Here I am.

On a Saturday afternoon.

Most teenagers would be out with friends;

going to a party;

doing what teenagers do.

Me?

Nahh. I'd rather sit on pinterest

and plan my wedding.

Everyone is getting married.

Its so exciting and I love that my friends have

found their someone.

But of course I'm sad

because my someone happens to be 6000 miles away

and the big day isnt even until next year!

But boy oh boy am I excited.

And I know he is as excited as I am!

Here are a few of my cute ideas for my dream wedding.

Heck, since a girl waits for two years

she should get the wedding of her dreams.

Never too early to start planning :)

My hair will be down and curled. Something like this.

I want these on tables, and on path.

There WILL be a picture with our rings in our letters.

Shawny will be in this light grey suit and the boys will

be in dark suits with light pink ties

Good thing I know all of our dates :)

Lace sleeves is a must!

I love the INFINITY band. means eternity :)

Good thing my boys dad is the fire cheif :) Im going to get an ok

for floating lanterns at my wedding.

My wedding will be based on the fact that i waited for him

so a mailbox is perfect.

These shoes are soooo freakin cute.

My colors?

Pink

Ivory

Grey

I cant wait for my wedding!!!

I love you Shawn!!!!



the month that made us stronger.

The title of this blog says enough.

December 1-January 10

have been the hardest month of our lives.

To those who have no idea whats going on

Shawn came home December 1.

He was in a lot of pain down in Chile

and they found out that he had a hernia.

The doctors and mission pres decided that the surgery

needed to be done in America because of how intense it was.

So Shawn came home on a wednesday and that Monday

he had surgery.

He was in so much pain.

He has never been in so much pain

Shawn was never ever one to complain but it was awful.

He didn't feel comfortable walking for about 2 weeks.

It got better, but if he walked too much, he would

be in so much pain and need to lay down.

So time went on

and everywhere we went, we would look for each other.

I saw him driving 3 times.

Christmas was horrible with out him.

but man, do I love him a million times more than I did before.

We learend a lot this past month;

about ourselves,

about each other,

about our relationship;

we are a million times more in love.

Now another thing;

it's no longer see ya in 2 years!

Its see ya NEXT YEAR!

I cant believe that NEXT SUMMER

Shawn will be all mine!

Man oh man,

Time.

Lets speed up!

Kick BUTT Shawn! Make me proud!

You're not leaving me for two years to let me down!

I know that you are amazing and the Lord has so much in store

for you the next 17 months.

And dont worry,

I'll be here thru the whole process and when you get home.

I promise.

I love you Shawny!!!

515 Days til he's home!

I wont give up.

I  love music.

I love everything about music;

the lyrics,

the beat,

the tone it sets,

the way it will touch a soul.

I came across this song,

and it brought tears to my eyes.

It is perfect.

But perfect is an understatement.

I love that the lyrics are on letters.

Enjoy!

Seriously :)

Lyrics:

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they holdAnd just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you areHow old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waitingTo see what you find

'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth itNo, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can makeOur differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am
[I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up.]
I won't give up on us (no I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a lot to learn (we're alive, we are loved)
God knows we're worth it (and we're worth it)
I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

I wont give up on us babe.

You have my promise.

I love you.



i will make you proud.

I thought of you today,

but that is nothing new.

I thought about you yesterday,

and days before that too.

I think of you in silence,

I often speak your name.

All i have are memories

and a picture in a frame.

Your memory is a keepsake,

 from which I'll never part.

God has you in his arms.

I have you in my heart

I'm in love.

I'm in love with my missionary.

I am so proud of him for serving the Lord

and for being who he is!

Being home isn't easy;

But I am so proud of him for going back out.

He will be here for another week,

but he'll be ready to go back out there;

kick butt; make me proud; make his family proud;

and make the Lord proud.

In the mean time.

I have a goal to better myself for him

and for the Lord.

I'm going to go to the temple once a week.

and read my scriptures every night.

Shawn is growing so much

and I need to be at his level when he comes home.

He makes me  proud;

I will make him proud.

I'm the luckiest girl in the world everyone.

Believe me.

I love that boy with all my heart.

Words wont even do any justice to explain

how grateful I am;

how much I love him;

and how lucky I am.

521 Days until he is home in my arms.

2012-

Happy New Years Everyone!

First I want to say

what a wonderful year 2011 was.

Graduated High School,

Fell more in love with Shawn,

Helped him prepare for his mission,

Sent him off on his mission,

Grew closer to my heavenly father,

started Hair School,

made new friends,

found great support,

got 2 tickets,

went sky diving,

found my new addiction (diet coke),

Started scrapbooking,

found the best job in the world,

went to Vegas,

went to Disneyland,

was on TV for a concert,

and so much more.

All together,

2011 was a great year.

I've learned so much

and I have so much to be grateful.

Now lets hope 2012

will be just a good as 2011.

I'm scared to face 2012.

So many things will happen.

Its my first FULL year without Shawn

since we met.

I'm not looking forward to it.

But I look forward to 2013

and in order to get there,

we need to accomplish 2012.

So what are my goals for the new year?

-Read the Book of Mormon

-Save money. lots of money

-Graduate Hair School

-Find a good job doing hair

-Get enrolled in a College

-Be the best girlfriend ever to Shawn

(Gosh, I love him)

-Go to the temple once a week

-Be a nicer person

-Make more friends

-Re-do my bedroom

-Scrapbook Shawn's mission

-Be more organized and clean

There are probably more things to the list

but for the most part,

those are the major things I want to accomplish.

And I will.

The New Year already started with a bang.

I'm just hoping this new year goes by fast.

2013 can't get here soon enough.

I love you Shawn.

I'll see you next year!!!

Here are some new pictures of

me and some of the beautiful MG's.

We went to Temple Square New Years Eve!

It was so much fun!

Love you ladies!