Feb 18, 2013

I Remember;

I remember seeing that Facebook add;
Shawn Larkin

I remember the first day my eyes met his and that feeling I had in my heart.
Laughing like we knew each other forever.
Hoping that he would still talk to me after the first time hanging out.

I remember getting that text as I walked into my house;
"I can't wait to be with you again". and thinking how on earth a girl like me could be around a guy like him.

I remember asking him to the Christmas dance my Junior Year because my parents wouldn't let me take the guy I originally asked. Wrapping up Mt. Dew and going to a family party with Santa. Shawn sitting on Santa's lap and opening the Mt. Dew and it said "Will you Dew me the favor and go to the Christmas Dance with me?"

Who would of thought that was one of the best decisions of my entire life.

I remember the day activity, walking around Temple Square in Salt Lake City and standing by that garbage can. Super romantic as he pulled me in and kissed me for the first time. I remember those butterflies because I still get them everytime I kiss him. Everytime.

I remember praying about the decision if I should continue dating Shawn or not. I remember how powerful that feeling was that I should. I remember Shawn working for it every single day. Proving how much he cares about me and wanting it to be official.

I remember going to Arizona to see my cousins and missing him SO much. That's when I knew I wanted to be his girl.

I remember January 24, 2010. Shawn picked me up and told me to close my eyes. We were driving in his truck and I couldn't stop laughing. I remember the truck stopping and Shawn said open your eyes. And right in front of me was a fence. In that fence were red cups.

WILL U B MY GIRLFRIEND?

I remember every up and down moment we ever had. I remember how strong we were for just being in highschool.

I remember the day he told me he loved me.
I was 16. He was 17. But it was real. and it is still real.
He told me after work one day. We sat in my car and he looked me in the eyes and said,
"Emily. I love you. I'm in love with you."
And I knew I could say it back because I felt the same way about him.

I remember that he changed my life. He made me a better person, a better friend to others, a better sibling, a better example to my peers. He helped me make and reach goals. I remember going to his prom, his graduation, I remember him coming to my prom and my graduation.

I remember every family party. Every heart-to-heart conversation.
He would pick me up every other day for lunch while I was still in highschool. I remember he would surprise me at work and then get kicked out because it wasn't aloud. He taught me how to ride a dirt bike. I remember seeing him play with kids for the first time and knowing he was going to be an amazing father one day.

I remember
(tears start now)
the day he told me he submitted his mission papers. I remember every emotion of that day. I remember us crying in his car because he was scared to pray about me in the temple because he didn't want the answer to be a NO.

I remember going to the temple in Salt Lake City,  waiting for him to come out. As he walked out, he picked me up off the floor and swung me around. He told me about the prayer he said in the Celestial Room and that it was so powerful and strong that the answer to marry me and for me to wait for him was a Yes. I remember praying about it as well and having the most powerful answer.

I remember crying with him a couple days before he left. No words were spoken.
We ugly cried together. It was terrible. haha. But I remember it and that pain is still there when I think about it. I remember holding him in the back seat of his truck and we just cried and cried. We were so scared what the future was going to hold and to lose each other.
I remember saying goodbye to him for 2 years.
I remember driving around in my car on hard days and just crying. Driving to our spots and just praying for strength.
I remember every excitement about a letter or email from him.

I remember every tear, every heartbreak, every sleepless night, every hard moment i had while he was gone.

I remember saying " I can't wait to be engaged " or " It feels like forever until we're married ". or "You're never coming home"

And look where we are now.
I remember hugging him in the airport and saying, I will marry him- to my best friend.
I remember the first time he held my hand after 2 years in the car. and the first kiss after 2 years.

I remember wanting to be his fiance so bad.
And now I am. He proposed at temple square. by our temple. The Salt Lake Temple. 
I get to marry my high school sweetheart.

Tonight, as I was cuddling with him on his couch, one of his mission buddies texted him. They haven't talked since Shawn got home from the mission and he said, "Dude how's Emily?" and Shawn replied, "She's awesome. I proposed 2 days ago". and it took my breath away for a second because that very moment the thought that came to my mind was, Wow. Shawn talked about me while he was on his MISSION. and now i'm his fiance.

And we cuddled all night. He's sick, so I've been taking care of him. He laid his head on my shoulder and I looked down at my ring and tears came to my eyes because I can't believe after all this time, I'm finally going to be his bride. People keep telling me "Oh Shawn is so lucky to have you". But really, I'm so lucky to have him. He's incredible and I can't wait to have him sealed to me forever. I loved taking care of my sick boy with a ring on my finger. We've always talked about being married but now it feels more official.

And as I was driving home, I thought Wow. This is happening. It still amazes me that I waited for him. And that was easily the best decision I ever made.
Because now I get to marry the man of my dreams. Today I went dress shopping and as I looked at myself in the mirror in THE dress, I cried. Because it was like every hard moment I ever had with waiting for him and waiting to marry him for 3 years, it was like it all left my body and I cried because I finally get to do what I've wanted so bad. I get to be HIS bride.

And I can't wait to be cuddling him after the wedding and saying,

"I remember planning a wedding, and now look where we are".

I can't wait for all the "I remember's" with him.


Feb 17, 2013

He Proposed down Memory Lane.

February 16, 2013

The best day of my life so far.

Shawn came and picked me up at 12:30 and we went to the Monster Truck show. I thought that was so cute because I haven't been in 3 years. (aka our first date)




Then after the Monster Truck show, Shawn had another surprise for me.
"Is this just a surprise all day date babe?"-Me.
"Yes, you will love it."-Shawn.

So we got in his truck and started driving. He parked and we started walking. Next thing I knew, we were at an ice skating rink in Salt Lake. (another place we had a date) 3 years ago we went there for a date and we pretended like we were figure skaters and he fell on his butt.

Well this year, I fell on my butt.








Then after Ice Skating, Shawn told me he had reservations for a place to eat. So we went to Trolley Square and walked around and then went to Rodizio's Grill. SO YUMMY. (our first date) 

Throughout the date I kept thinking he would propose. I mean, it's a trip down memory lane. but as the day kept going and getting late, I thought for sure he wasn't going to. Maybe this is just a fun date because he just got payed. Maybe this is just a special date cuz he loves me. I dont know! But I thought for sure he wasn't going to propose.

Okay, back to the date.

So we are at dinner having a great time. We got talking about how much we love each other. Yes, we are a cheesy couple. and yes I love it. 

"What are we doing after this babe?"- Me.
"Well save room for dessert!"-Shawn.
"Okay then what are we doing? Going home?"-Me
"Well we have somewhere to be at 8:30"-Shawn

BUTTERFLIES. 

After dinner, we went to City Creek and got Cheese Cake at the Cheese Cake Factory. It was so crowded so we got it to go and ate it in the food court! 

Then it was 8:00 and decided to go look around in some stores. So we went to Cotton On (and I guess when we were in there his sister was in there but i had no idea) and then we went into Forever 21. 

Finally it was 8:20 and we started walking over to Temple Square. I didn't think anything of it because that's where we had our first kiss so I thought that was just our next stop down memory lane. 

He told me he had to go to the bathroom really quick so we just went inside the Joseph Smith building. he went into the bathroom and so did I. When I came out, he was no where to be found. I guess he really had to go. hahaha.

He finally came out and we got walking. We stopped in front of the temple where the Bride and Groom stand on that pillar thing to take pictures and he said "I can't wait to marry you in that temple". As we were walking he kept saying funny stuff. Okay not funny stuff, just cute stuff. but it was like he was nervous and trying to keep conversation.

We were the only ones walking around the temple except a couple photographers taking night pictures of the temple.

We sat down at the mirror pond and looked around. He then said,

Babe, I love you but I have a question. He stood up, and then got down on one knee.

"Will you marry me?"

Tears flooded my eyes as I looked down at the most beautiful ring ever. I kissed him, kissed him a lot. and said YES! He put the ring on my finger. I felt like i was in a dream. There were a ton of flashes and a video guy in my face. I turned around and his mom was taking pictures. and my mom was there and handed me flowers from Shawn. and then his sister was there and handed me a build-a-bear dressed like a bride and when i press the foot it plays our song!

My mom and dad were there. and his mom and dad and sister. It was so special. Then I realized the photographers taking pictures of the temple, were actually there for US! The videographer was actually the videographer who is filming our wedding. Shawn and my mom called him to come video the proposal!

And so when Shawn was in the bathroom taking forever he was actually talking to the videographer and Barlow (the videographer) was hooking him up to a mike under his jacket.

I am so happy and so in love with this boy! I can't wait to spend forever with him.

June 22, 2013 is our wedding date :)