Jan 28, 2013

La la land.

Have I been MIA from my blog or what?!
Sorry everyone, I've just been in la la land for the past three weeks enjoying every single second with my RM. Seriously, I can't snap back into reality quite yet. We've had so much fun together! It's really like he never left. I could not be any happier, but then again, every day keeps getting better and better!

So I'm sorry I've been slacking so much lately on my blogging, I've just been kind of away from the world.

I still can't even decide what to change my blog to! Then again, I haven't had any time to even sit down and think about it. Because when I actually get time to think, its never about reality stuff. Only like "I hope I get to marry my best friend someday" kind of stuff :)
I hope I get lucky ;)

So once I return from La la land (which is probably never), I'll REALLY update this blog. Hopefully sometime this week!

Along with that, I need to start going to the gym every morning, go to school 10 hours a day (kill me, I'm going to miss Shawn waaay too much), eat healthy, make priorities, and work.

Reality sucks.
Can I just cuddle all day long with my boyfriend?

So here's some pretty fun stuff that's happened over the past couple weeks.

Homecoming Talk

Kissing.. alot


Three Year Anniversary
He brought me flowers to school.

Cuddling up next to each other everywhere we go


Spending every second with my best friend.





Alright world.  I'm going back to La la land. See ya :)


Jan 11, 2013

So in love.

Could life be any better? I honestly have never been so happy! Having Shawn home is the best thing in the world. Being with him again, I'm reminded exactly why I said I was going to wait. It was more than worth it and I'd do it over and over again! People keep asking me if it's been awkward or if he's "weird". And truth is, its completely normal. It's like we didn't even skip a beat! He's the same but BETTER.

I've never felt so loved and cherished. Every minute he says, "I love you" or "I can't wait to marry you" or "You're beautiful" or "Thanks for everything". He's the most amazing man in the entire world. I don't know how I got so lucky to have him! He really is wonderful and loves me so much!

The mission changed him. He's so humble, so loving, walks in my house and gives everyone a huge hug. He's SUCH a gentleman and so polite. I love hearing about his mission and how much he loved it.

Today, we skyped with one of his companions and that was SO fun to hear him speak Spanish back and forth! He's adorable.

Did I mention I love having him home? Seriously, I can't even believe I lived without him for 2 years.
It's funny, we'll be sitting there cuddling and randomly just look at each other and say "I can't believe we did it". I mean, who can say they had a full on long distance relationship for 2 years, but only got an email a week and if they were lucky a letter. We only got to hear each other's voices on Christmas and Mothers Day. and he came home and everything was perfect. It was like he never even left!

Gosh, I'm so happy!

I can't wait to see what the future brings us. But I know that with him, it will be perfect. He's my best friend, my love, my everything and I'm so blessed to have him!

I'm so thankful for a Heavenly Father that helped me so much during the past 2 years. Who stood by my side and helped our love grow. I learned to depend on him a lot to help me get through some pretty tough times and I'm so grateful for the relationship I have with him :)

So now its time to change my blog. No more of this waiting stuff. "Our Journey" or quotes about waiting. I'M DONE WAITING. Done :) He's home. I still can't believe it.

And I'm loving every second of it :)







Jan 5, 2013

He's Home!


I've never been so happy in my entire life.
Sorry this is way long haha but SO worth reading.

Let me back track just a little bit :)
As most of you know, Shawn's actual release date was supposed to be May 21, 2013.
Christmas Day, we skyped him and he told us that he has been in so much pain. He came home December of 2011 for a hernia surgery and then went back out, and I guess his hernia came back. My first reaction: Holy Cow.

He then told us that they need to figure out what's going on and whats going to happen. When we got done skyping, his moms first words were, "Looks like we have a missionary coming home early". My stomach was in knots. Is this seriously happening?? I kept asking myself. So for the next couple days, it was back and forth communication between his mom and the mission president figuring out what was going to happen.

Monday Dec, 31: He tells me in an email that the mission president wants him to stay til February 28, (2 more transfers) but he was in SO much pain and was trying to get home earlier. but he was also very sad and didn't want to leave but felt like he had no choice.

Wednesday, January 2: His mom texts me "Shawn will be most likely coming home Friday. Dont' tell anyone until we get his itinerary" My world just flipped upside down.

Thursday Jan, 3: The day we were supposed to hear the news. I waited all day to eventually find out that he was going to arrive tomorrow at 10:30 am. Most of you girls get months to prepare, I had 24 hours. Banner, posters, outfit, presents, so much to do and so little time. But I wasn't complaining :)

Shawny got an honorable release and returned home 4 1/2 months early.

Sooooo now to the exciting part :)

The Airport:

I woke up at 7am and had to be at his house at 8:30 to decorate. Still didn't even pick out my outfit but luckily i had my best friend there to help me out. We got to his house at 8:30 and my best friend kept saying "Has it hit you yet" And no it didnt at all! It was all a dream. Decorating his house, seeing the Welcome Home Elder Larkin sign, it was all surreal. Driving to the airport my stomach started getting in knots but I still didn't feel like I was seeing my boyfriend. Everyone talks about this "nervous feeling" I NEVER FELT IT. Pure excitement. I wasn't nervous at all. It just didn't feel like it was happening. Maybe because I had 24 hours to get ready, I'm sure that's it. Anyway, we got there at 9:30 and his mom called me saying "Shawn's flight is arriving at 9:56." A HALF HOUR EARLY. So we got into the airport, and I was there with my best friend, his family, and my family. Also the awesome photographer and person filming it. I then walked over to the arrival board and just sat there and watched his flight number. It then said landed. Finally it hit, and I was already bawling like a baby. GREAT. hahaha.

We all then stood together getting ready for this handsome boy to land. It took FOREVER for him to get down, but then.. it happened. I saw him. And every heartache, every lonely night, every awful date, every hard night went away. In that moment, it was like nothing mattered and it was only me and him in this world. I literally fell to the floor crying (as you could see in my pictures). I watched him hug his family and hold his mom for a long time and I said to my best friend, "I will marry him". He walked over to me and grabbed me. he pulled me in SO TIGHT and whispered "I love you so much Em". He wouldn't let me go. we just held each other and I pulled back a little to look at him and said 'YOURE REAL!!!" and he pulled me back in to hug me. I can't even explain the hug in the right words because incredible is an understatement.

He then went to hug my family and he couldn't take his eyes off me. and he mouthed the words "I love you". and while we were walking he put his arms around me and pulled me in for another hug. It was perfect. Then we got his bags and he said "You're coming with me in the car right?" And I said "No I have to take my friends home but then i'll be right over!" and he said "K you better Emmie". haha.

Awful 7 hours:

Shawny couldn't get released until 5pm!! So we just talked and he told us stories and gave us presents. and then we walked up to his office for him to show us pictures and videos on the computer and it was just me and him in the room for a second before his mom got in there and he said "holy crap is it 5 yet?" haha we both just laughed.

Finally released:

At 5pm I went home so he could go to the stake presidents to get released and they told me to be back at 6 to go to dinner. So I went home and to pass the time I got on facebook and just sat there waiting. When I got back to his house it was a complete different feeling and the minute our eyes met i could feel how much he loved me. We then got in his car and it was his mom and dad in the front, and then shawn, me in the middle, and his sister on my right side. Right when we got in the car, shawn grabbed my hand and held my hand. Amazing. Then he would play with my hands and rub them. and I'm not exaggerating when I say this every 2 minutes he'd say either "I love you" or "You're amazing" or "Thanks for waiting babe" or "You're so pretty". At dinner he kept touching my leg and holding my hand under the table. and on the way home he held my hand the whole time and kept saying those same things.

When we got back to his house he wanted to watch Avengers. hahaha so we cuddled and watched the movie. and he kept pulling me in closer and closer.

Then his dad went to bed and I was getting ready to leave, but before he left we had a little heart to heart talk. He said "Em, I want to thank you for wating for me. It was so hard, but you are the most amazing girl in the world and there's no one else i'd rather be with. I'm so in love with you and want to be with you forever. You are beautiful and I'm so lucky."

He kissed me before I left and it was amazing. We both teared up. Ok he teared up, I cried like a baby.

Today:

Waking up this morning and knowing Shawn was home was one of the best feelings in the world. He came over to my house before my brothers baptism and right when I heard his truck pull up and ring the door bell I RANNNNN to the door and jumped on him. We then went to the baptism and he just kept hugging all my extended family and telling everyone how much he loves them. While we were sitting there he had his arm around me, or holding my hand, but again every 5 minutes he'd whisper "I love you so much". Ahhhh. He's perfect. And then I watched him be in the circle giving my brother the holy ghost and I cired. i'm a baby i know. haha and we are seriously glued to each other. He will not let me go!

We went back to my house to have a family party and each lunch and I was like "Babe do you want me to throw away your plate?" and he was like "NO! stay and cuddle me." and i said "babe i'll be fast!!" and he said "K hurry fast. i miss you already" hahahaha. we're ridiculous. but he's perfect.

And then we were sitting there and he was holding me and playing with my hair, and then he said "Babe, lets go look at wedding rings soon k?" :) :) :) eeeeek.

I can't even tell you how much I love him. I've read all these stories, and they alll say keep waiting its worth it. but it never like stuck with me. I'M EATING MY WORDS RIGHT NOW. THE WAIT IS WORTH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WOULD DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN. The LOVE you share is amazing..I did one of the hardest things and he will forever appreciate it. I never imagined love to be this strong and I tear up just thinking about how special it is. I am so madly in love with this boy. I've been stomped on, I've been hurt while waiting, boys are jerks, i've dated horrible guys, and i've had miserable days, but I would do it all over again because guess what?! NONE OF IT MATTERS. it's like it never happened.

and it was all sooo worth it.

Everything is perfect. He isn't weird at all. It's like he never left. He's the same but better. Such a gentleman and loves this gospel. The spirit is so strong around him and I can't wait to marry him some day.

So this is my story. Its been 2 days and they are the best 2 days of my life. and its only going to get better!!!!!













Jan 3, 2013

My last night waiting-

Is this really happening?- I find myself asking that question a lot lately. Can you blame me? I didn't think he was coming home til May. I mentally got ready for May and now it just came out of no where. I don't think it's even hit me QUITE yet. Randomly throughout the day, it would kind of hit me, but it hasn't sunk in. Like when I was making his poster, I took a minute and I was like "Whoa". Or when I was at the mall and someone asked "who are you shopping for?" and I said "oh my boyfriend". Double whoa.

So just stuff like that would happen and it would kind of hit. I think it'll finally sink in when I'm sitting in the airport (whoa major butterflies just came). Maybe it's starting to sink in now and I'm just too tired to realize it. Who knows. But all I know is that my boy will be home in less than 12 hours.

12 freakin' hours. 

Poster- Check.
Banner- Check.
Balloons- Check.
Yellow Ribbon- Check.
Presents for him- Check.
Five outfits laid out on my floor- Check.
New make up- Check.
Nails painted- Check.
Hot Bath- Check.
Clean car- Not Check. Screw it the car was was closed hahaha.
Best friend?- She'll be here in a minute.
Someone to film- Check.
Photographer- Check.
Boyfriend- ALMOST CHECK.

I honestly don't remember the last time I was THIS happy! And the best part? I will only be HAPPIER tomorrow! Gosh, I wish everyone in the world could just experience this excitement.

See you tomorrow babe :) I LOVE YOU.

Jan 2, 2013

Someone pinch me.

Am I dreaming? Is Shawn really coming home in 2 days?!

Forget all the plans I made before he got home, finishing school, losing 15 pounds, going on girls trips. Forget all the countdowns I have in my room and on this blog, my boyfriend is coming home in 2 days! On Christmas, Shawn let me and his family know that he has been in a lot of pain lately and his hernia has returned. So after a lot of prayer and talking to doctors, they decided to give him an honorable release from his mission and send him home.

HOME.

My boyfriend is coming HOME.

I can't even wrap my head around it quite yet! I have been super giddy all day. I can't even think straight to write this post!

I get my boyfriend back. No more lonely nights, no more dateless weekends, no more counting down, no more waiting.

I'm done waiting.

Someone pinch me.