Beautiful Words.

Some may call that impossible, I call it a blessing.

Words can't even express how much I miss this boy.

Today is one of those days when I can't stop thinking about him. Where ever I go, whatever I do, he is always "there". I was flipping through old pictures of me and him, and for a minute.. it felt like he was just a dream. All our pictures have a story, and I feel like those "stories" were made up. Like I had this made up boyfriend. This made up fairytale. And then the warmest feeling came over me. He's real. Our memories aren't make believe. They happened. And they were the best days of my life. Its hard imagining another year. To be honest, some days it's almost unbearable. Never in a million years did I ever think I would wait for a missionary. Some days I'm on cloud 9 and I'm on such a high about him being so close to being done, and others I feel like it's sooo far away. Is it crazy that this picture was taken 2 years ago?

I remember taking this picture with him. In fact, it was one of our first pictures together. I was wearing his hoodie and we were just hanging around the house and I wanted to be the typical couple and take a mirror picture. Instead of him smiling with his cute smile, he kissed my cheek. No complaints :)

I'm trying to stay positive. but lately? I miss him ALOT. I knew it was going to be hard. Things that are the most difficult to overcome are the most worth it in the end. But I never thought my "hard days" would crash this hard. I'm a very happy girl. There are so many beautiful things to be happy about. I found my love at 16 years old. Some may call that impossible, I call it a blessing. Some people search their whole lives to have what I have. But even the happy girls have hard days. I think my problem is, that I hold everything inside. I've always been that way. I am always happy; always looking for the positive in life. And once that hard day roles around like once a month.. its hard. Its draining. BUT (here's the positive side of me coming out) its a beautiful reminder how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss so much. 

Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle rather a beautiful reminder of just how strong true love can be. 

Even happy girls need someone to hold their hand once in a while and say "Everything is going to be alright''. 

I'm half way done. I can do this.. Right? It'll all be worth it. 

I'm just so ready to have him home. I miss him soo much. 

I love you forever babe.

He's cute.

I dont care how cheesy or dorky you all may think this is,
but the fact that he stood there while someone took this picture
and he was totally thinking about me when he woke up that morning...

makes me smile SO BIG.
I'm the luckiest girl in the world.

365 Days.

I DID IT.
I can't believe it.

June 8, 2012 marked Shawns

ONE YEAR MARK.

When I look back on this past year, it really has gone by so fast. So much has happened in one year. I've grown so much. But the best part of growing, is growing with Shawn. We've only become closer and I thank God everyday for the amazing relationship that I have. I'm so proud of Shawn. The  mission has been everything but easy for him, and I'm so proud of him for sticking it out and working hard. He amazes me every single day. This wait is not easy. It calls for lonely nights, heartache, patience.. but I know that it will be worth it. So, I'll keep waiting. Whatever it takes, I will not give up. I know there is a light at the end of this tunnel and hitting the year mark finally made this light brighter. I can see it. The end is in sight. Its so fun to say "this time next year.. he'll be here". Its a countdown now. I cant wait to have him home but I also cant wait to see what this next year brings us. I know that it will bring us closer and make him grow even more into the man I want to spend forever with. And I'm doing the same; becoming the woman he deserves. We can do it Shawn.

So, for his year mark. I made a video with the help of Jazmin. Enjoy :)

365 Days

Click on this link ^^

I love you Shawn. 365 days down.

365 days to go :)