Some may call that impossible, I call it a blessing.

Words can't even express how much I miss this boy.

Today is one of those days when I can't stop thinking about him. Where ever I go, whatever I do, he is always "there". I was flipping through old pictures of me and him, and for a minute.. it felt like he was just a dream. All our pictures have a story, and I feel like those "stories" were made up. Like I had this made up boyfriend. This made up fairytale. And then the warmest feeling came over me. He's real. Our memories aren't make believe. They happened. And they were the best days of my life. Its hard imagining another year. To be honest, some days it's almost unbearable. Never in a million years did I ever think I would wait for a missionary. Some days I'm on cloud 9 and I'm on such a high about him being so close to being done, and others I feel like it's sooo far away. Is it crazy that this picture was taken 2 years ago?

I remember taking this picture with him. In fact, it was one of our first pictures together. I was wearing his hoodie and we were just hanging around the house and I wanted to be the typical couple and take a mirror picture. Instead of him smiling with his cute smile, he kissed my cheek. No complaints :)

I'm trying to stay positive. but lately? I miss him ALOT. I knew it was going to be hard. Things that are the most difficult to overcome are the most worth it in the end. But I never thought my "hard days" would crash this hard. I'm a very happy girl. There are so many beautiful things to be happy about. I found my love at 16 years old. Some may call that impossible, I call it a blessing. Some people search their whole lives to have what I have. But even the happy girls have hard days. I think my problem is, that I hold everything inside. I've always been that way. I am always happy; always looking for the positive in life. And once that hard day roles around like once a month.. its hard. Its draining. BUT (here's the positive side of me coming out) its a beautiful reminder how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss so much. 

Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle rather a beautiful reminder of just how strong true love can be. 

Even happy girls need someone to hold their hand once in a while and say "Everything is going to be alright''. 

I'm half way done. I can do this.. Right? It'll all be worth it. 

I'm just so ready to have him home. I miss him soo much. 

I love you forever babe.