Well first off, I'm sick of saying goodbye to Shawn. Why can't we just skip the next 61 days and be married already? Its tough waking up in the morning thinking 'Oh I can't wait to see him in 12 hours'. I can't wait to see him first thing when I wake up. And then once 7:30 pm hits, I'm the happiest girl in the world because the next 3 hours, it's just me and Shawn. And nothing in this world can get between us. The world stops, and it's just pure bliss when I'm with him. I always text him saying 'Babe, I just want to snuggle'. That's my favorite part of the day. Getting out of school and falling into his arms.
Alright, what else is on my mind? The wedding. Of course. We're getting a lot done. I finally finished engagement picture shopping today. I don't know why I'm so nervous and stressed about engagements. I think it's just because you get one day, and they better be perfect. That'd suck to hate your engagement pictures.
Ya know, I'm really glad I waited for Shawn. I was a stupid girl to have doubts while he was out and to be worried. Now that I know how happy we are, I'd do it all over again. A million times. Thank GOODNESS I never do, but I would. As long as I get him for eternity. I was thinking a lot about that today while I was driving, or had down time at school. He's too good to me and I'm so happy. As some of you know, I dated while Shawn was out. And I'm so glad I didn't end up with one of those guys. Even though they had no chance against Shawny, it's still blows my mind that I even 'wasted my time'. We can all argue that I guess. I learned a lot and I learned that Shawn is my perfect soul mate. But still, those boys are lame. I'm just glad that even through the hard times, I always stayed strong. The Lord kept his promise to Shawn. When he got set apart as a missionary, his blessing said, "As long as youre obeying the rules, everything at home will be the way you want it when you get back". And he kept His promise to me. I prayed every.single.night that our love would become stronger and stronger. and it did. and at times, it was tested. but it never crumbled. It NEVER went away. and I'm so grateful to have such an amazing man that loves me and has so much patience with him. Who 'held my hand, and held my heart' for two years. Even though at times, he probably wanted to walk away. Ladies and Gents, I'm the luckiest girl in the world. You all just THINK you are. I could go on and on about this, but really, I just feel blessed. If you didn't know this already, I am so glad I waited :) I wouldn't want it any other way. When Shawn was cuddling me tonight, he kissed my cheek before he gave me a kiss on the lips. He has no idea how much that meant to me.
My time management sucks. All I want to do is plan my wedding. And then if I'm planning my wedding, I just want to go to school and get school done. But then I go to school, and I just want to be with Shawn. and then when I'm with Shawn, I want to stay up all night talking to him. But then I wanna wake up early to work out. Then its the morning, and I want to just sleep in. And then I decide i just want to go tanning. and while i'm in the tanning bed I think, what should I do to plan my wedding? and the cycle starts all over again. It's fine guys, I'm way organized. HA!
Well I'm tired, Night.
xox
i'm excited to see what outfits you ended up finding!
ReplyDeleteI bet they are perfect!