He knows what he's doing.

I've met a lot of people in my life,
but especially these past 14 months.
Some good; some bad.
Some that have made a huge impact in my life,
some that I wish I never met.
But then again, every single person that has come into my life
have made me a better person.
They make me who I am today. 
They make me stronger, 
They show me what a true friend is verses a bad friend.
They show me what I want in a husband and what I don't want.

They are blessings in disguise. 

I've made girlfriends that will last a lifetime.
Practically like sisters to me.

But I want to direct this post about... Boys.

Yes, other boys.

I've met some pretty cool guys.
Returned missionaries
Complete sweethearts
Totally fun to be around

And it seems like a cycle with them.

Kind of something like this:

I meet them, hang out with them a lot, have a great time, open up to each other, become super close, they confess feelings for me, I remind them that I have Shawn, they pretend they dont care, another week goes by of hanging out and having a great time, then BAM- they turn into something completely different. They do things Shawn would NEVER do to me, or any girl for that matter. Like:

Flaking on plans.
Making up excuses.
Lying - ALOT.
Talking crap behind my back.

Jealousy? Maybe.
But still, its such an eye opener that Shawn is perfect.
Shawn.. would NEVER do anything like that to me.
Infact, when we started dating and I was the distant one, he NEVER gave up on me. He never gave me a reason to give up. He never flaked, he ALWAYS followed through with plans, he never lied to me, he never ever said anything rude behind my back. and I think, "If I wasn't Shawns girl.. would he do that to another girl?" NEVER. Shawn has more respect than that.

And this is where my title comes into place:

God knows what he is doing.

God puts people in my life to make me stronger, or to remind me how good I already have it. Even if he is 6000 miles away. I can honestly say I dont know what I would do without Shawn.

I was thinking about that yesterday while driving in my car. "What if something happened to Shawn?" "What if me and Shawn never met?" "What if Shawn didnt want to marry me?" and my heart just ached. Those questions didnt make sense to me. It was like that is something I should never be asking myself.

I love these simple reminders. And even though I'm so tired of the cycle with STUPID BOYS, I'm so grateful for God's presence in my life. I am very bless to have Shawn. He is amazing and I'm the luckiest girl in the world to have him now and forever.

309 Days.