I miss...

I miss being in your big, strong arms.

I love you Shawny.

simple reminders.

I love being reminded about how perfect my sweetheart is.
This may sound silly,
but tonight the main topic at work was 'Divorce'.
Sick right?
Every lady that I worked with tonight has been divorced.
Did you know that 64% of the population is dealing with Divorce?
That got me thinking.

And the more I thought about it,
the more disgusted I got.

"I'm never getting married"-is what I thought.
But then I thought about Shawn.
I got the most peaceful feeling I have ever felt since he has been gone.
I love those silly moments when something whispers in your ear,
"He's worth it Em."

I'm surrounded by it everywhere I go.
When I'm working in the salon:
                     i cant wait to one day cut HIS hair.
When I'm working:
                    i cant wait to show my coworkers this amazing man.
When I'm driving:
                     i cant wait to drive around with him again holding hands.
My bestfriend is married:
                     i cant wait to move out to South Jordan and be married couples together.
When I'm making me food, shopping, sleeping, listening to music, laughing, etc.

Everything points to Shawn.
My FUTURE points to Shawn.

And whenever I think about it,
there is no one I'd rather spend my life, and eternity with.

"What is she thinking?! She is only 19 years old!"
Yeah? I'm sure your mom or yourself was married at 19 or 20.
I'm not that young.

But I AM in love.

I'm in love with Shawn.

So after work, I said a little prayer in my heart, thanking my Heavenly Father for blessing my life
with the most amazing man in the world. Someone who loves me unconditionally, someone who sees past my imperfections, someone who accepts me for me and makes me wanna be a better person, someone that is so special to me and special enough to miss so much, someone who would NEVER hurt me, and has offered me the world. I love Shawn so much and no one will take him away from me.

Distance can kiss my butt.
Because its only making me love him more.

And
same with the divorce topic.
i've got an amazing man.

I wont.

I refuse.

I will wait.

Thats a promise.

I love you Shawn.

73 days til the year mark.

He still loves me.

I'm far from perfect.
I've made mistakes, I've learned from them of course, and he still loves me.

Relationships are far from easy. You have to work at it everyday.
I have the most forgiving, caring, loving man a girl could ever ask for.

I seriously, do not know how I got so lucky!

He's my everything.

Isnt he handsome?

I miss him so much.

i love you babe.

Cool stuff.

Just got back from a much needed get away with the family to

St. G

Me and Ty went to the St G Temple.

So pretty.

I love temples.

Shawn loved it when I sent him this picture.

His two favorite people! :)

Wanna see something cool?

Check out this picture.

I can't believe how fast time is flyin;

for now.

I can't wait to be with you again in 15 months babe.

I miss you SO MUCH.

and I love you!

patience.

"There is an important concept here:
patience is not passive resignation,
nor is it failing to act because of our fears.
Patience means active waiting and enduring.
 It means staying with something and doing all that we can
—working, hoping, and exercising faith;
 bearing hardship with fortitude,
 even when the desires of our hearts are delayed.
 Patience is not simply enduring; it is enduring well!"
 -Dieter F. Uchtdorf.

15 months to go

Mission Baby.

I'm sure you may be asking why the title is what it is?

Well today is March 8, 2012,
which means...

Me and Shawn just had our "mission baby".

9 Months Down!!

I can't believe I have made it this far.

I remember when Shawn just left,

and I was sitting in my family room talking with my family

doing the countdown.

"By the time school starts, it'll be 2 months. Then Christmas, it'll be 6 months,

then my birthday it'll be 8 months and then almost 9 months, and then the year mark!"

And look where we are!

9 months down

and 9 months that i'll never have to do again!

Good feeling.

Very good feeling.

i can't believe 92 days away from the

HUMP DAY!

Happy Mission Baby!! I love you :) :)

Okay.

So yesterday I got a surprise letter!

That doesn't happen often.

Letters take forever to get to the states from Chile

and so I was shocked when I got a letter yesterday.

I even screamed.

Well there was a part in the letter I want to share with you :)

You may agree that I have the cutest boyfriend ever.

"We are trying to get a family we found to get married, and I loved teaching about it cause I thought about you the whole time. I also told them something like this 'You two have been living together for 12+ years, and have three kids, It's definitely time to get married. I have a girl named Emily back in the United states waiting for me, we have been together for over 2 years and you two have no idea how jealous I am of you two because you can get married right now, and I have to wait until next year to marry her." Then we talked about the blessings of temple marriage and they even cried and felt the spirit so strongly. It was amazing. Everyone asks about you here Emmie, you are famous. So yes, we have people in the states that look up to us, but we also have people in Chile. amazing huh? Thank you for taking this journey with me Emmie"

Isn't he the cutest?!

Then he went on to talk about his mission and lessons he taught

and about how he loves me.

He's great.

15 months left?

Piece of caaaake!!

I love you Elder Shawn Larkin!!



Daybreak.

I just fell in love

with the Daybreak area.

Daybreak, South Jordan.

One of my bestfriends

Holly Ross

just got married.

Her and her hubby moved out to Daybreak

and I just visited her yesterday.

Here is what went down.

-Made Cinnamon Bread Twists

(thanks pinterest)

-Laughed so hard because I fail at kneading.

"Just add more flour Em"

-Made dinner for her Hubby and her Hubby's friend.

(Thanks pinterest. again.)

-Watched some sweet youtube videos.

-Went on a drive.

-Snuck into Usher's managers new house

that is being built above the Draper Temple.

ITS HUGE.

-Jordan showed me around Daybreak.

I fell in love.

-Watched Ellen videos about The Bachelor.

-Caught someone in a sketchy act.

-Made me a twitter.

-And planned my married life.

Never a dull moment with Holly.

And the more that I was with them,

the more excited I got about moving out there.

I hope Shawny loves it out there as much as I do.

Everything is just perfect.

There are tracks that go to the University of Utah.

Jordan can help Shawn get a job.

There is a lake out there.

Temples really close.

BEAUTIFUL neighborhood.

And the best part of it all?

While me and Holly enjoy pinning, cooking, girl time;

Shawn and Jordan will be upstairs "game-ing".

Oh, the married life.

I can't WAIT.

I can't wait to marry my best friend;

Shawn Brett Larkin <3



By your side.

This song.

Wow.

I've been dealing with a lot of battles the past two weeks.

Depending a lot on the Lord for comfort

and to feel the love of Shawn thru these hard trials.

And today,

I came across this song.

And every word was an answer to my prayers.

I'm such a lucky girl to have

The Lord

and Shawn

by my side.

Where was I when your tears were falling?
Where was I went you needed a friend?
Where was I when your heart was calling?
Do you not remember?
Well I'll tell you then.

Know I remain
right by your side.
Push thru the rain,
and into the fire.
When I said I loved you
its just what I meant
so when you ask me
"Where was I when?"
Everytime;
I was right by your side.

Where was my love when your heart was bleeding
Was it not enough just to be your man?
When you had no feeling, where were my hands?
If you dont remember;
I'll tell you then.

I remain right by your side
Push thru the rain,
and into the fire.
When I said I loved you
it's just what I meant.
So when you ask me
"where was I when?"
Everytime;
I was right by your side.

Well dont you know,
that I give all the best of me.
I've done it all,
But you still dont want to see.
That I remain right by your side
Push thru the rain
and into the fire.
Cuz when I said I loved you,
its just what I meant.
So when you ask me
"Where was I when?"
Everytime;
I was right by your side.