Hello readers :)
I'm sorry I've been slacking on my blog lately! I've been kind of busy. But I just want to tell you all that I have the best guy in the world. And it's amazing that 6000 miles away, he still knows what to say to make me happy. Without even asking me, he knows if I'm having a hard time with something and he knows how to fix it.
Here's the story:
Lately I've been getting worried about him coming home. I was secretly worried of course, but a lot of concerns popped up into my head. The normal stuff! Everyone gets nervous when it starts getting closer and closer. I was getting worried that he was going to take everything for granted. Waiting is tough! But I want to feel appreciated. All these questions popped into my head:
What if he doesn't appreciate me?
What if he doesn't 'fight' for me?
A marriage is pretty much handed to him when he gets home, and most guys have to work for it,so what if he just expects way too much of me?
What if he doesn't love me when he gets home?
What if I'm not good enough for him?
All these stupid questions. Things I SHOULDN'T be worried about because he's, hands down, the most amazing guy in the world. But they were worries I've had. Everyone gets worries ya know?
Well yesterday was monday so that means I get an email from him.
And without me even telling him my worries or conerns, this is the first thing he says to me:
Thanks for waiting for me. Thank you for being my girl and going on this journey with me. Thank you for going through all you do daily, weekly, yearly. Thank you for being focused on what we have and never giving up. I love you more than you know. I know that I dont say it enough, but you have no idea how much i appreciate everything you do. Seriously, THANK YOU. Our love is special and our story is special. Thank you! I know what you are going through, well maybe I dont, but I do partly and I will never take you for granted. I know that I am SO BLESSED to have you. We have a perfect love. There are so many amazing things about us. We have been throught so much to get here and I dont know what I'd do without you. You might think that things go un noticed, but I appreciate you more than you will ever know. I promise you. I love you so much. I love the person you are and have become. You are a woman of strength. I dont know how you do it, but thank you. I love you. I will never let you down. Its you and me. We've got less than 8 months. Hold on Em, we can do it. Dont you ever doubt in it! :)
It was everything and more that I needed to hear. How on earth did I get so lucky?
I'm an idiot for even questioning things.
235 more days.
that just made my heart happy :) it's amazing to see how much you've both grown and changed (well, judging by the fact is that all i know about 'you two' is what we talked about at my going away party and your blog)
ReplyDeletei am so excited/happy for you emily!! hang in there :) miss you <3