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I remember getting this countdown and thinking "I can't wait to fill up Called" and then "Oh once I start Serve, that will be an amazing feeling"

And here I am. Starting Serve. Is this real life? I can almost taste the homecoming. 9 1/2 months will be here in no time. I just got to keep telling myself that!

Shawn is doing an amazing job in Chile. He loves his companion. In fact, its been his favorite companion so far. Sadly, transfers were yesterday and he now has a new companion so I hope he is a fun dude. He has been successful with baptisms but  now he is just working on getting members to church. That seems to be a huge problem down there. but i know that he will continue to work hard and make everyone and the Lord proud :)

I love him!

This means the most to me.

This song is absolutely beautiful.
If ever I am having a hard time, I just listen to this song.
Its PERFECT!
and I can't wait to have him home in my arms.

He means the most to me.

14 months.

It feels so good to have 10 months left!

Time really is going by. and everyday that passes is one day closer to having him home.
Sometimes I really can't believe I'm waiting for a missionary! I'm kind of crazy. hahaha.
but then again, it's so worth it. I love him so much!

14 months down, 10 more to go :)
We can do this Shawn!

He knows what he's doing.

I've met a lot of people in my life,
but especially these past 14 months.
Some good; some bad.
Some that have made a huge impact in my life,
some that I wish I never met.
But then again, every single person that has come into my life
have made me a better person.
They make me who I am today. 
They make me stronger, 
They show me what a true friend is verses a bad friend.
They show me what I want in a husband and what I don't want.

They are blessings in disguise. 

I've made girlfriends that will last a lifetime.
Practically like sisters to me.

But I want to direct this post about... Boys.

Yes, other boys.

I've met some pretty cool guys.
Returned missionaries
Complete sweethearts
Totally fun to be around

And it seems like a cycle with them.

Kind of something like this:

I meet them, hang out with them a lot, have a great time, open up to each other, become super close, they confess feelings for me, I remind them that I have Shawn, they pretend they dont care, another week goes by of hanging out and having a great time, then BAM- they turn into something completely different. They do things Shawn would NEVER do to me, or any girl for that matter. Like:

Flaking on plans.
Making up excuses.
Lying - ALOT.
Talking crap behind my back.

Jealousy? Maybe.
But still, its such an eye opener that Shawn is perfect.
Shawn.. would NEVER do anything like that to me.
Infact, when we started dating and I was the distant one, he NEVER gave up on me. He never gave me a reason to give up. He never flaked, he ALWAYS followed through with plans, he never lied to me, he never ever said anything rude behind my back. and I think, "If I wasn't Shawns girl.. would he do that to another girl?" NEVER. Shawn has more respect than that.

And this is where my title comes into place:

God knows what he is doing.

God puts people in my life to make me stronger, or to remind me how good I already have it. Even if he is 6000 miles away. I can honestly say I dont know what I would do without Shawn.

I was thinking about that yesterday while driving in my car. "What if something happened to Shawn?" "What if me and Shawn never met?" "What if Shawn didnt want to marry me?" and my heart just ached. Those questions didnt make sense to me. It was like that is something I should never be asking myself.

I love these simple reminders. And even though I'm so tired of the cycle with STUPID BOYS, I'm so grateful for God's presence in my life. I am very bless to have Shawn. He is amazing and I'm the luckiest girl in the world to have him now and forever.

309 Days.