Babies Don't Keep

Hadley,

Last night as I woke up with you in the middle of the night to feed you, my heart was so full. I just stared at your little face and thought about how much you have changed our lives. You have made me the happiest mama. I didn't know I could love someone so much like I love you. I then thought about the first little moments we had together and how you just stared at me with those big eyes as I held you for the first time. I also didn't know I could miss someone so much as they took you away to the nursery to clean you. I kept telling your daddy to send me pictures and when he sent me the picture of you holding his finger, my heart melted. Your daddy loves you so much too Hadley girl. 

I then thought about how you had a hard time with feeding at the beginning, but it's okay. That's normal. I thought about the first time I fed you a bottle. It's a really funny story actually. I gave you a bottle and you just seemed to love it. You chugged and chugged that bottle. Then when I burped you, you spit up (what seemed like) the whole thing! Haha. Your daddy then took you to the nursery for them to watch you while we ate dinner. He told the nurses that you were spitting up but they didn't seem to be bothered by it. Then after we had dinner, daddy went to pick you up and the nurses were concerned. They asked your daddy how much of the bottle you ate. He replied "The whole thing." The nurses laughed and said "Oh no. She was only supposed to maybe have a fourth of that!" haha woops! We just thought you loved it and drank the whole 2 ounces! 

So as I was feeding you, I laughed to myself as I thought about that story as being a new mom. 

I then just kept staring at your little face. Your little button nose that you got from your mom. Your cute chin you got from you dad. I thought to myself, 'How are you already 2 months old?'. It's bitter sweet how fast you grow. It's hard for me to remember my little 5 pound baby curled up in a ball. I love your rolls and the smiley phase you are in now, but sometimes I miss my little 5 pound baby. Of course I look forward to all your next stages in life. I am so excited for when you can run around and call me "mommy''. But last night I realized how fast you do grow, so I rocked you a little longer. I wasn't eager to get back to bed. I just rocked you and cuddled you and tickled your little face because I know you won't stay little forever. But you will always be my little girl. 

Mother, O Mother, come

shake out your cloth,

Empty the dustpan, poison

the moth,

Hang out the washing, make

up the bed,

Sew on a button and butter

the bread.

Where is the mother whose

house is so shocking?

She's up in the nursery,

blissfully rocking,

Oh, I've grown as shiftless as

Little Girl Blue, 

Lullabye, rockabye, lullabye

loo,

Dishes are waiting and bills

are past due

Pat-a-cake, darling, and peek,

peekaboo

The shopping's not done and

there's nothing for stew

And out in the yard there's a 

hullabaloo

But I'm playing Kanga and

this is my Roo

Look! Aren't her eyes the most

wonderful hue?

Lullabye, rockaby, lullabye

loo.

The cleaning and scrubbing

can wait till tomorrow

But children grow up as I've

learned to my sorrow.

So quiet down cobwebs; Dust

go to sleep!

I'm rocking my baby 

and babies don't keep.