Not easy.

His surgery went very well.

But it was more intense than planned.

I guess he has had a hernia his whole life

and never knew about it.

So there was more digging, more stitching;

and he is in so much pain.

It took him two weeks to finally feel comfortable.

He was supposed to go back

December 16.

But there was just no way.

Poor guy can't even move,

you think he'd be okay to go out and serve his mission again?

I dont think so.

So looks like he'll be home for Christmas

and New Years.

Yay me.

Sarcasm?

Yes!

Because this is the time of year that we love

and spend every minute together

and we can't.

BUT

part of me really is happy he is home.

1. I'd rather have him recover here than Chile

2. I have to only do one Christmas without him

not two;

even though we aren't "really" together,

its nice to know he is so close :)

And lets just hope I get a miracle this Christmas to see him.

Other than that,

you guessed it;

I haven't seen him yet.

Its the hardest thing I have ever done.

I'm just waiting for the day that I run into him somewhere.

In fact, I did pass him last week while driving.

He was in his Grandma's car.

For a second, I couldn't believe that was him.

I thought I was seeing things;

til my sister reassured me that it was Shawn.

Then I had a mini heart attack as he smiled at me when I drove by.

I love him.

We email Mondays

and he just sent me some pictures from his mission.

^Men Working

I love him.

He is SUCH a stud!

My heart melts everytime I see a picture of him!

534 Days babe.