Jun 26, 2012
Jun 16, 2012
Some may call that impossible, I call it a blessing.
Words can't even express how much I miss this boy.
Today is one of those days when I can't stop thinking about him. Where ever I go, whatever I do, he is always "there". I was flipping through old pictures of me and him, and for a minute.. it felt like he was just a dream. All our pictures have a story, and I feel like those "stories" were made up. Like I had this made up boyfriend. This made up fairytale. And then the warmest feeling came over me. He's real. Our memories aren't make believe. They happened. And they were the best days of my life. Its hard imagining another year. To be honest, some days it's almost unbearable. Never in a million years did I ever think I would wait for a missionary. Some days I'm on cloud 9 and I'm on such a high about him being so close to being done, and others I feel like it's sooo far away. Is it crazy that this picture was taken 2 years ago?
Today is one of those days when I can't stop thinking about him. Where ever I go, whatever I do, he is always "there". I was flipping through old pictures of me and him, and for a minute.. it felt like he was just a dream. All our pictures have a story, and I feel like those "stories" were made up. Like I had this made up boyfriend. This made up fairytale. And then the warmest feeling came over me. He's real. Our memories aren't make believe. They happened. And they were the best days of my life. Its hard imagining another year. To be honest, some days it's almost unbearable. Never in a million years did I ever think I would wait for a missionary. Some days I'm on cloud 9 and I'm on such a high about him being so close to being done, and others I feel like it's sooo far away. Is it crazy that this picture was taken 2 years ago?
I remember taking this picture with him. In fact, it was one of our first pictures together. I was wearing his hoodie and we were just hanging around the house and I wanted to be the typical couple and take a mirror picture. Instead of him smiling with his cute smile, he kissed my cheek. No complaints :)
I'm trying to stay positive. but lately? I miss him ALOT. I knew it was going to be hard. Things that are the most difficult to overcome are the most worth it in the end. But I never thought my "hard days" would crash this hard. I'm a very happy girl. There are so many beautiful things to be happy about. I found my love at 16 years old. Some may call that impossible, I call it a blessing. Some people search their whole lives to have what I have. But even the happy girls have hard days. I think my problem is, that I hold everything inside. I've always been that way. I am always happy; always looking for the positive in life. And once that hard day roles around like once a month.. its hard. Its draining. BUT (here's the positive side of me coming out) its a beautiful reminder how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss so much.
Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle rather a beautiful reminder of just how strong true love can be.
Even happy girls need someone to hold their hand once in a while and say "Everything is going to be alright''.
I'm half way done. I can do this.. Right? It'll all be worth it.
I'm just so ready to have him home. I miss him soo much.
I love you forever babe.
Jun 13, 2012
He's cute.
I dont care how cheesy or dorky you all may think this is,
but the fact that he stood there while someone took this picture
and he was totally thinking about me when he woke up that morning...
makes me smile SO BIG.
I'm the luckiest girl in the world.
but the fact that he stood there while someone took this picture
and he was totally thinking about me when he woke up that morning...
makes me smile SO BIG.
I'm the luckiest girl in the world.
Jun 11, 2012
365 Days.
I DID IT.
I can't believe it.
June 8, 2012 marked Shawns
ONE YEAR MARK.
When I look back on this past year, it really has gone by so fast. So much has happened in one year. I've grown so much. But the best part of growing, is growing with Shawn. We've only become closer and I thank God everyday for the amazing relationship that I have. I'm so proud of Shawn. The mission has been everything but easy for him, and I'm so proud of him for sticking it out and working hard. He amazes me every single day. This wait is not easy. It calls for lonely nights, heartache, patience.. but I know that it will be worth it. So, I'll keep waiting. Whatever it takes, I will not give up. I know there is a light at the end of this tunnel and hitting the year mark finally made this light brighter. I can see it. The end is in sight. Its so fun to say "this time next year.. he'll be here". Its a countdown now. I cant wait to have him home but I also cant wait to see what this next year brings us. I know that it will bring us closer and make him grow even more into the man I want to spend forever with. And I'm doing the same; becoming the woman he deserves. We can do it Shawn.
So, for his year mark. I made a video with the help of Jazmin. Enjoy :)
365 Days
Click on this link ^^
I love you Shawn. 365 days down.
365 days to go :)
I can't believe it.
June 8, 2012 marked Shawns
ONE YEAR MARK.
When I look back on this past year, it really has gone by so fast. So much has happened in one year. I've grown so much. But the best part of growing, is growing with Shawn. We've only become closer and I thank God everyday for the amazing relationship that I have. I'm so proud of Shawn. The mission has been everything but easy for him, and I'm so proud of him for sticking it out and working hard. He amazes me every single day. This wait is not easy. It calls for lonely nights, heartache, patience.. but I know that it will be worth it. So, I'll keep waiting. Whatever it takes, I will not give up. I know there is a light at the end of this tunnel and hitting the year mark finally made this light brighter. I can see it. The end is in sight. Its so fun to say "this time next year.. he'll be here". Its a countdown now. I cant wait to have him home but I also cant wait to see what this next year brings us. I know that it will bring us closer and make him grow even more into the man I want to spend forever with. And I'm doing the same; becoming the woman he deserves. We can do it Shawn.
So, for his year mark. I made a video with the help of Jazmin. Enjoy :)
365 Days
Click on this link ^^
I love you Shawn. 365 days down.
365 days to go :)
May 30, 2012
He's out there.
He's out there.
He's just 6037 miles away.
I miss him so much it hurts.
I've needed him more than ever lately.
and I just cant wait to have him back.
May 26, 2012
That "One Day".
Oh the roller coaster of emotions.
It's just one of those nights where I really miss him. Ya know, that kind of night where I just wanna get in sweats, watch a movie, and cuddle up next to him? I miss feeling him next to me. I'm lucky to remember how he feels. It's hard to go from being with someone every single day for almost 2 years, to not at all. I'm almost a year in and it's still a struggle. It's really hard to imagine another year without my best friend. So much has been going on the past week that I want to run to him and tell him about. But he's not here. I remember a couple weeks into the wait, I really had a hard time with accepting the fact that he wasn't here. Typing his name into my phone to text him, almost driving to his house to go see him. And now I'm almost a year into the wait, and just the other day I put "shawny" in my phone to call him. What was I thinking? He's not here. And it's really hard to be without my best friend. Something else really clicked to me tonight too: I'm actually in a long distance relationship. I never thought in a million years I would do that, let alone wait for a missionary. It takes a strong girl to go 2 years without someone they love so much and I'd have to say.. I'm kickin' butt at it. Me and Shawn have never been so in love and so strong in our relationship. I couldn't be happier. But yet, i become happier every single day. It's amazing the things that boy does to my heart. One day he'll be home. One day we'll be together again; forever. But that "one day" seems forever away. I miss him so much. I miss having him here. I dont think the people of Chile understand how lucky they are to have him. I miss his laugh. I miss the way he would make me laugh. Thats what I need lately. Especially with everything going on here, I just need him to put me back at ease. Why does 2 years have to be so long?
But on the up side.. I know that I'm about half way. And things between me and him are perfect. People search their whole lives to find a love like ours, and how lucky are we to find it at such a young age. He's the best thing that has ever happened to me and I can't wait for that "one day" to come.
It's just one of those nights where I really miss him. Ya know, that kind of night where I just wanna get in sweats, watch a movie, and cuddle up next to him? I miss feeling him next to me. I'm lucky to remember how he feels. It's hard to go from being with someone every single day for almost 2 years, to not at all. I'm almost a year in and it's still a struggle. It's really hard to imagine another year without my best friend. So much has been going on the past week that I want to run to him and tell him about. But he's not here. I remember a couple weeks into the wait, I really had a hard time with accepting the fact that he wasn't here. Typing his name into my phone to text him, almost driving to his house to go see him. And now I'm almost a year into the wait, and just the other day I put "shawny" in my phone to call him. What was I thinking? He's not here. And it's really hard to be without my best friend. Something else really clicked to me tonight too: I'm actually in a long distance relationship. I never thought in a million years I would do that, let alone wait for a missionary. It takes a strong girl to go 2 years without someone they love so much and I'd have to say.. I'm kickin' butt at it. Me and Shawn have never been so in love and so strong in our relationship. I couldn't be happier. But yet, i become happier every single day. It's amazing the things that boy does to my heart. One day he'll be home. One day we'll be together again; forever. But that "one day" seems forever away. I miss him so much. I miss having him here. I dont think the people of Chile understand how lucky they are to have him. I miss his laugh. I miss the way he would make me laugh. Thats what I need lately. Especially with everything going on here, I just need him to put me back at ease. Why does 2 years have to be so long?
But on the up side.. I know that I'm about half way. And things between me and him are perfect. People search their whole lives to find a love like ours, and how lucky are we to find it at such a young age. He's the best thing that has ever happened to me and I can't wait for that "one day" to come.
May 22, 2012
May 20, 2012
I'm so lucky.
So Shawn never fails to tell me that he loves me every week.
He's amazing. I love hearing his stories about the mission and being a part of the experience with him! But Saturday (since it was his Pday) he emailed me the sweetest email. I dont know what happened this past week to make him love me so much haha but gosh he's so cute. I cried when I read this:
"I read a quote by President Monson "There is a heavenly influence in all things. When things happen they are not by accident. When we look back to what seemed to match in our lives, we realize that maybe after all, nothing was by accident" I translated it from spanish, so it might be a little better in his own words than my translation. But, as I know, we didnt just meet each other by accident. Everything has an influence in our lives. I mean how weird is it that we grew up in the same town, same schools, and we didnt meet each other until your junior year and my senior year. Like that doesnt just happen. Our story is so special, and our love is one of a kind. and it still continues to grow every day that passes by. And I get reaffirmed of this everyday. I know there are times when satan gets in our heads and gives us doubts or makes us scared of what could happen. But we are strong. We can do this! :)I love you. You are the girl of my dreams, and no one even comes CLOSE to you. I'm proud of you for working so hard in hair school And im sure that you do the best work, and just outshine everyone there. Because you are my girl, and you are the best. Thanks for just being the amazing girl that you are, I know that it isnt easy doing what you are doing. And there is not one girl that can do what you are doing. I know you make lots of sacrifices and maybe sometimes feel alone. I owe you the world for this, and that is what im going to give you. You mean the world and more to me. I love your family too so much and can't thank them enough for making me feel a part of the family. Thank you for supporting me in my mission. You give me such a boost and help me be the best missionary. I owe you the world for helping me get out here. I love the mission and I've grown so much. My testimony is so strong and I love touching people's lives. I know that people give "the girlfriend" such a hard time but all you've done for me while I've been out, is help me be the best that I can be. You are an amazing daughter of God. He loves you so much Emily and I'm so blessed to have you in my life. Thank you so much for everything. We can do this! One more year. The mission has helped me so much and I dont have a single doubt that this church is true. I'm grateful to have a girl like you that has such a strong testimony as well. Thank you so much Emmie for everything you do for me and everyone around you. And thank you for being so strong. You've helped me in so many ways. I love you"
He's amazing. I have the best missionary/ boyfriend in the WORLD. :)
May 17, 2012
Skype Date.
First off, I just want to say I'm sorry for taking so long to post this blog post!
I know some of you have been wanting to hear all about my wonderful date Sunday and
trust me;
I'm ready to tell you all about it.
Mothers Day;
A great day. Before I continue, just a shout out to the best mom in the world. I love you so much
and thank you for everything you do for me and the family. You really are fantastic.
So the day started off like any other...
who am I kidding, the minute I woke up,
I had butterflies.
Getting ready for church, knowing that in four short ours I was going to talk to the love of my life.
Church went by even slower. All I could think about was "what am I going to say? Is it going to be weird? Will he look, sound, act the same?" I had no idea what to expect.
1:30: Sitting in relief society, watching the hands on the clock slowly moving.
1:35: Are you kidding me?
1:45: Peace out relief society.
I went home to get myself ready before I had to be there.
When I finally got to his house, I waited anxiously at the doorstep. His mom answered the door with a huge hug and a "Hello Sweetheart! Come on in, He's on! We are just on the deck" I handed her, her mothers day present and told her Happy Mothers Day. When we got outside to the deck and I popped myself into the webcam, Shawns face just started glowing. I couldnt believe he was there! I was smiling from ear to ear. And that smile did not leave my face the whole time. After standing for a few minutes, his mom got up and brought me a stool to sit on, put me dead center, and then I turned to her and said "no no its okay, you guys be center" and then she said "No Em, the girlfriend needs to be center. He enjoys looking at you more anyway" and then Shawn interuppted saying "Yeah Emily dont move!" haha and we all laughed.
The best part about it? It wasn't weird AT ALL! Shawn hasn't changed a BIT! Except he is more handsome of course. But he was the still shawn. My Shawn. He told us stories about the mission, told us about his surgery, where he is staying to recover, what he is going to do for his birthday, and so much more. I just kind of sat back and enjoyed listening to his voice. I didnt really know what to say, mostly because I was in shock that my boyfriend was in front of me. TALKING. Shawn then asked me some questions about my life, and I told him all about school and my future trip coming up and about my family. It was so good to hear from him. His laugh is just as cute or even cuter than I remember. His smile was amazing. Just everything about him. I'm one lucky girl.
We got to skype with him for 2 hours. The best 2 hours ever. He's real everyone. I have a real boyfriend. Not just some imaginary friend that is perfect. He's real. and guess what else? He only has a year and 22 days left. :) haha. But who's counting right??
As the skype ended, we all said Goodbye. Everyone kept saying "WE LOVE YOU SHAWN!" But I was too scared to say it. His Grandma then leaned over to me and said "You can tell him you love him sweetie" haha we all laughed and then Shawn said, "EM, I love you!!" and I just smiled. but I knew if I said it back I would start crying. I just hurried and said goodbye.
Goodbyes are so hard. Soooo hard.
But that Skype Date was amazing. Reassured me so much and made me realize how good I DO have it. How amazing our love is and with this love, we can conquer anything!
I know some of you have been wanting to hear all about my wonderful date Sunday and
trust me;
I'm ready to tell you all about it.
Mothers Day;
A great day. Before I continue, just a shout out to the best mom in the world. I love you so much
and thank you for everything you do for me and the family. You really are fantastic.
So the day started off like any other...
who am I kidding, the minute I woke up,
I had butterflies.
Getting ready for church, knowing that in four short ours I was going to talk to the love of my life.
Church went by even slower. All I could think about was "what am I going to say? Is it going to be weird? Will he look, sound, act the same?" I had no idea what to expect.
1:30: Sitting in relief society, watching the hands on the clock slowly moving.
1:35: Are you kidding me?
1:45: Peace out relief society.
I went home to get myself ready before I had to be there.
When I finally got to his house, I waited anxiously at the doorstep. His mom answered the door with a huge hug and a "Hello Sweetheart! Come on in, He's on! We are just on the deck" I handed her, her mothers day present and told her Happy Mothers Day. When we got outside to the deck and I popped myself into the webcam, Shawns face just started glowing. I couldnt believe he was there! I was smiling from ear to ear. And that smile did not leave my face the whole time. After standing for a few minutes, his mom got up and brought me a stool to sit on, put me dead center, and then I turned to her and said "no no its okay, you guys be center" and then she said "No Em, the girlfriend needs to be center. He enjoys looking at you more anyway" and then Shawn interuppted saying "Yeah Emily dont move!" haha and we all laughed.
The best part about it? It wasn't weird AT ALL! Shawn hasn't changed a BIT! Except he is more handsome of course. But he was the still shawn. My Shawn. He told us stories about the mission, told us about his surgery, where he is staying to recover, what he is going to do for his birthday, and so much more. I just kind of sat back and enjoyed listening to his voice. I didnt really know what to say, mostly because I was in shock that my boyfriend was in front of me. TALKING. Shawn then asked me some questions about my life, and I told him all about school and my future trip coming up and about my family. It was so good to hear from him. His laugh is just as cute or even cuter than I remember. His smile was amazing. Just everything about him. I'm one lucky girl.
We got to skype with him for 2 hours. The best 2 hours ever. He's real everyone. I have a real boyfriend. Not just some imaginary friend that is perfect. He's real. and guess what else? He only has a year and 22 days left. :) haha. But who's counting right??
As the skype ended, we all said Goodbye. Everyone kept saying "WE LOVE YOU SHAWN!" But I was too scared to say it. His Grandma then leaned over to me and said "You can tell him you love him sweetie" haha we all laughed and then Shawn said, "EM, I love you!!" and I just smiled. but I knew if I said it back I would start crying. I just hurried and said goodbye.
Goodbyes are so hard. Soooo hard.
But that Skype Date was amazing. Reassured me so much and made me realize how good I DO have it. How amazing our love is and with this love, we can conquer anything!
May 11, 2012
2 more days.
Sunday can't come soon enough!!
Mothers day :)
Yes what a wonderful day to celebrate mothers everywhere.
I have the best mom in the world.
But what else am I excited for??
I get to see Shawn's handsome face!
His mom invited me over for SKYPE!
I can't even believe it. I'm so excited!
It was so nice of her to invite me over!
Ahhh. I can't wait.
.... to be continued. :)
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