Gorg.

Can I just be married already?!

I found this ring and cannot FOR THE LIFE OF ME stop thinking about it.

If anyone were to ask me what my dream ring is, this is it.

Found it.
$2500

One day :)

Bonding time.

Today was perfect.

I got to spend the evening with Shawns mom. Her daughter gets home from her mission next week, and so me and his mom went shopping together to get things ready and to dinner. It was so great spending time with her. We talked a lot about Shawn of course. And its so nice to know that she is so supportive of me and Shawn. It helps SO much. And a lot of the time she kept saying "10 months from now, me and you will be doing this to get ready for Shawn to come home". K I can't believe I'm waiting for a missionary. It blows my mind haha. But I wouldn't want it any other way! Me and her laughed a lot and had such a great time together. She told me so many stories about Shawn and showed me pictures of him that I've never seen. K this is so cute;

When Shawn was a little boy I guess he was SUPER cuddly. He always cuddled up to his mommy. He is such a mamas boy. Anyways, whenever his dad would go out of town, he would go sleep with his mom in her bed and snuggle all night. and when he got out of his crib into his big boy bed, he wouldn't fall asleep unless someone was holding his hand. So his mom would lay on the floor and hold his hand until he fell asleep. Isn't he the CUTEST?! No wonder he is so cuddly with me ;) and I love it! Shows what kind of dad he's gunna be :) ahhh I love him! and then she also told me that Shawn was close to dying when he was a baby. Which I already knew, but I didnt know the extent of it and I guess it was bad enough that she wrote his obituary. YEAH! I died when I heard that. I'm so grateful that he was kept on this earth. We were meant to find each other and be together and I'm just so grateful that he is still here. I love that boy.

Anyways, today was just a great day. It feels so good to be close to his mom. And next week, I'll be going over there to help decorate the house and go to the airport to pick up Lindsey! I am so happy she is coming home! It'll be good to get a good relationship with his sister! I'm grateful that I am close with his parents. They are so loving. His dad already treats me like one of his own, and tonight his mom treated me like one of her daughters! It was perfect. She would be a great mother in law. We opened up to each other a lot and it was like we could talk about anything and everything and it felt so good to hear her say "I can tell how happy you and shawn are and that you love each other" and when she was showing me pics of him I kept saying "Oh he makes me so giddy" and she would just chuckle and say "Yes he is a cutie!" haha I am just SO Happy right now!!! 

Happy & Humble.

Maybe I should knock on wood before I post this blog post:

I'm the happiest I have ever been during the wait.
I dont know what it is. But I woke up one morning and felt like a whole new person.
I think it's because I've made changes in my life. There really are so many beautiful reasons to be happy.

I have an amazing family. I am so lucky. I know that I give my siblings such a hard time, but I really have gotten so close to them this past year. I have great parents that would do anything and everything for me. They are such great examples to me of true love. I have an amazing "fake" brother, Mark. I say fake, because we aren't related, but calling him a best guy friend is no where near true. He really is the older brother I never had.

I have amazing friends. They are such supports in everything I do. They are always there for me. On good days and bad. They make me laugh so hard and we ALWAYS have such a fun time. They always give me a reason to smile. They're my rock. I dont know what I would do without them. Its so great to have such good girlfriends. In high school, I didnt have the best group of girlfriends. They taught me a lot, but mainly what I deserve. I dont have regrets, I learn from everything. And I know that having a boyfriend all through high school was hard on my girlfriends, but it was hard on me to know that they weren't supportive of me and Shawn. I was terrified that once Shawn left, I would have no body. Let me tell ya, God answers prayers. I truly have the best girlfriends any girl could ask for. I'm SO blessed. You know who you are :) Holly, Ky, Chris, Jess, and Miranda. Thank you.

I am a member of the true church. I am so grateful for the gospel in my life. I think that is another reason I am so happy. I heard this quote "Choose a man that brings you closer to god, than himself". With Shawn serving a mission, his example has really brought me so much closer to my Heavenly Father. He makes me want to be better every day. And with that mind set, I have never been so close to my Heavenly Father. When I pray, it's as if God is with me. Always. I read my scriptures every night, and I'm working on going to the temple once a week until Shawn gets home. thats 50 temple visits starting now. A lot of people lately have said to me "Emily, you seem happy. You are always positive. and have this light with you always". And if any of you feel dark right now, what you need to do is get closer to your Heavenly Father that LOVES YOU. Thats what I did.  and honestly, it makes me such a happier girl.

I have the most amazing job. I know that sometimes I complain about working, but I have the best co-workers. They bring me up. They support me. They are so funny. I always have such a great time working and I'm so lucky to have a job that I love going to.

I love school. Again, I know sometimes I complain going, who doesn't. But I'm a lucky girl to be doing something that I love every day and have a career at 20. I enjoy making people feel pretty and making them feel better about themselves. I guess you could call me a people pleaser, I always have been and always will be. I'm very selfless and I will ALWAYS put others first.

Last but not least, I have Shawn. What 19 year old can say she found love at 16? Not many. And how many people can say they've gone a 13 months without seeing the love of their life? and won't see them for another 11? Not many. But we're doing it. and we're coming out strong. We grow every day. Spiritually, and I love him more every day. I'm so so so proud of him. He loves his mission. and he is doing SUCH an amazing job. I wouldn't want him any where else right now. This is his time, to grow, to help others, to bring those to the gospel that I am so proud to be apart of. This is my time. My time to grow, help others, and improve myself to be that girl he's always dream't about. This is our time.

Though distance took us apart, time will bring us back together.

And in the mean time, I choose to be happy. All the time. I'll allow myself a sad time every now and then, that's healthy. But I choose to be happy. and not just to be happy for the next 11 months, but to always be happy. To always see the positive in things and be grateful for the beautiful things in life. That I'm healthy, that I live in this beautiful country, that I'm in love, that I have amazing family and friends, a great job, and that I go to school. I'm very humble tonight, and I choose to always be that way.

Love and Theft.

Like a thundercloud without a chance of rain
Like a stretch of sandy beach without the waves
It's like i'm spinning my wheels
Down a lonely interstate...
Me without you

It's a picture perfect sky without a view
It's an empty seat at a table for two
It's having all the time in the world
And nothing to do...
Me without you

I've been loving you so long
I'm a leaf lost in the wind
I want to be so strong
But i don't know how to begin
So i keep holding on
Cause i don't know what else to do
I try to be, but i'm not me
Without you

It's a beautiful song to be sung
But nowhere to sing
It's this beat up old guitar missing a string
It's me calling in the middle of the night
And it just rings
Me without you

I've been loving you so long
I'm a leaf lost in the wind
I want to be so strong
But i don't know how to begin
So i keep holding on
Cause i don't know what else to do
I try to be, but i'm not me
Without you

Baby, tonight i'm gonna light your favorite candles
And open a bottle of my favorite spanish wine
Gonna listen to the song that we made love to the first time
It's all i can do
It's all i can do...

I've been loving you so long
I'm a leaf lost in the wind
I want to be so strong
But i don't know how to begin
So i keep holding on
Cause i don't know what else to do
I try to be, but i'm not me
Without you

Perfect songs. 


I miss you so much Shawn. Everyday. But especially today, is hard. 


342 days til we are together again. and never apart. 

Beautiful Words.

Some may call that impossible, I call it a blessing.

Words can't even express how much I miss this boy.

Today is one of those days when I can't stop thinking about him. Where ever I go, whatever I do, he is always "there". I was flipping through old pictures of me and him, and for a minute.. it felt like he was just a dream. All our pictures have a story, and I feel like those "stories" were made up. Like I had this made up boyfriend. This made up fairytale. And then the warmest feeling came over me. He's real. Our memories aren't make believe. They happened. And they were the best days of my life. Its hard imagining another year. To be honest, some days it's almost unbearable. Never in a million years did I ever think I would wait for a missionary. Some days I'm on cloud 9 and I'm on such a high about him being so close to being done, and others I feel like it's sooo far away. Is it crazy that this picture was taken 2 years ago?

I remember taking this picture with him. In fact, it was one of our first pictures together. I was wearing his hoodie and we were just hanging around the house and I wanted to be the typical couple and take a mirror picture. Instead of him smiling with his cute smile, he kissed my cheek. No complaints :)

I'm trying to stay positive. but lately? I miss him ALOT. I knew it was going to be hard. Things that are the most difficult to overcome are the most worth it in the end. But I never thought my "hard days" would crash this hard. I'm a very happy girl. There are so many beautiful things to be happy about. I found my love at 16 years old. Some may call that impossible, I call it a blessing. Some people search their whole lives to have what I have. But even the happy girls have hard days. I think my problem is, that I hold everything inside. I've always been that way. I am always happy; always looking for the positive in life. And once that hard day roles around like once a month.. its hard. Its draining. BUT (here's the positive side of me coming out) its a beautiful reminder how lucky I am to have someone so special to miss so much. 

Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle rather a beautiful reminder of just how strong true love can be. 

Even happy girls need someone to hold their hand once in a while and say "Everything is going to be alright''. 

I'm half way done. I can do this.. Right? It'll all be worth it. 

I'm just so ready to have him home. I miss him soo much. 

I love you forever babe.

He's cute.

I dont care how cheesy or dorky you all may think this is,
but the fact that he stood there while someone took this picture
and he was totally thinking about me when he woke up that morning...

makes me smile SO BIG.
I'm the luckiest girl in the world.

365 Days.

I DID IT.
I can't believe it.

June 8, 2012 marked Shawns

ONE YEAR MARK.

When I look back on this past year, it really has gone by so fast. So much has happened in one year. I've grown so much. But the best part of growing, is growing with Shawn. We've only become closer and I thank God everyday for the amazing relationship that I have. I'm so proud of Shawn. The  mission has been everything but easy for him, and I'm so proud of him for sticking it out and working hard. He amazes me every single day. This wait is not easy. It calls for lonely nights, heartache, patience.. but I know that it will be worth it. So, I'll keep waiting. Whatever it takes, I will not give up. I know there is a light at the end of this tunnel and hitting the year mark finally made this light brighter. I can see it. The end is in sight. Its so fun to say "this time next year.. he'll be here". Its a countdown now. I cant wait to have him home but I also cant wait to see what this next year brings us. I know that it will bring us closer and make him grow even more into the man I want to spend forever with. And I'm doing the same; becoming the woman he deserves. We can do it Shawn.

So, for his year mark. I made a video with the help of Jazmin. Enjoy :)

365 Days

Click on this link ^^

I love you Shawn. 365 days down.

365 days to go :)

He's out there.

He's out there.

He's just 6037 miles away.

I miss him so much it hurts.

I've needed him more than ever lately.

and I just cant wait to have him back.

That "One Day".

Oh the roller coaster of emotions.

It's just one of those nights where I really miss him. Ya know, that kind of night where I just wanna get in sweats, watch a movie, and cuddle up next to him? I miss feeling him next to me. I'm lucky to remember how he feels. It's hard to go from being with someone every single day for almost 2 years, to not at all. I'm almost a year in and it's still a struggle. It's really hard to imagine another year without my best friend. So much has been going on the past week that I want to run to him and tell him about. But he's not here. I remember a couple weeks into the wait, I really had a hard time with accepting the fact that he wasn't here. Typing his name into my phone to text him, almost driving to his house to go see him. And now I'm almost a year into the wait, and just the other day I put "shawny" in my phone to call him. What was I thinking? He's not here. And it's really hard to be without my best friend. Something else really clicked to me tonight too: I'm actually in a long distance relationship. I never thought in a million years I would do that, let alone wait for a missionary. It takes a strong girl to go 2 years without someone they love so much and I'd have to say.. I'm kickin' butt at it. Me and Shawn have never been so in love and so strong in our relationship. I couldn't be happier. But yet, i become happier every single day. It's amazing the things that boy does to my heart. One day he'll be home. One day we'll be together again; forever. But that "one day" seems forever away. I miss him so much. I miss having him here. I dont think the people of Chile understand how lucky they are to have him. I miss his laugh. I miss the way he would make me laugh. Thats what I need lately. Especially with everything going on here, I just need him to put me back at ease. Why does 2 years have to be so long?

But on the up side.. I know that I'm about half way. And things between me and him are perfect. People search their whole lives to find a love like ours, and how lucky are we to find it at such a young age. He's the best thing that has ever happened to me and I can't wait for that "one day" to come.